Secundi

Hi guys,

So, my husband passed away tonight.  It was very sudden.  He spent the evening playing with LilBit, then went back to the bedroom, and a few minutes later we found him collapsed, barely breathing, and unresponsive.  By the time they got him in the ambulance, there wasn't a heartbeat any more, and they weren't ever able to get it started again.  We don't know yet what caused it.

I've got good friends in the area that are helping us out, and family coming in the morning.  I know there's going to be lots of changes in our life now.  I really have no clue whether I'll be around here more, less, or the same.  I'll probably try to stick to business as usual as much as I can, but if I do disappear it's because this life event swallowed me up for a bit.  I will try to keep you informed if I know I'll be disappearing for any amount of time.

<3

Silvanon

I'm sorry for your loss Silv. <3 My thoughts are with you and take all the time you need.

Oh Silv! I'm so sorry!  I'll keep you and LilBit in my thoughts *hugs*

Very sorry to hear that Silv :(

Lots of love to you and LilBit *hugs*

I can't believe this.. I am so very sorry for your loss. *hugs Silv and LilBit* I wish you all the strength in the world. Secundi is here for you. *more hugs and love*

My condolences. What a shock. *hugs*

Oh Silv :(

I am so sorry for your and LilBit's loss. I can't even begin to imagin how hard that must be for you. *Hugs* to you and princess.

Silv, I don't know what to say. *hugs* Prayers going out to you and Lilbit. I am sorry for your loss.

Oh hunny..... words cants help I know but I am sending you and Lilbit all the love in my heart. Please hunny, if there is anything We here can do, let us know! If I can help in any way, I will do!

xxxxx

Oh... wow. I don't even have words. You and LilBit will be at the forefront of my thoughts. As so many others have said, don't hesitate to speak up if you need anything. Sending much love and good thoughts your way.

I am so sorry silv I wish I had something else to say :( your in my thoughts and prayers

I'm sorry Silvanon. :'(

My heart goes out to you & Lilbit. You will both be in my thoughts & prayers.

Silv I really don't know what to say. I cannot say how sorry I am for yours and LilBit's loss. We are all here for you if you need us and want you to do whatever is best for you and LilBit. Much love and thoughts.

My heart and my prayers go out to you and LilBit during this difficult time. This is devastating news. :( Please take care of yourself. We will be here if you need anything at all. <3

*hugs Silvand Lilbit* I am so sorry! I can't think of anything to say other than I am so sorry for your loss because there are just no words to cover this. I can't begin to imagine what you must be feeling right now. *hugs again*

Thank you everyone *hugs*

All of our love and prayers for you, Silv.  i'm so very sorry.  If you need anything, please let us know. <3

I am...so sorry silv. This is by far just...well, as everyone else here has said, words can't really help. I wish the best for you and lilbit...*hugs*

Sending your family all our love and supporting thoughts, Silv. So many condolences for you and LilBit's loss. <3

I am so very sorry for your loss.

You and your family are in our prayers.  <3

I am so sorry Silv! You and LilBit are in my thoughts <3 If you need anything we are here for you Silv.

*hugs Silv* I am so sorry for your loss D: I wish words could help more, but you and LilBit will be in my thoughts <3

I am so sorry for yours and LiBit's loss.  I am glad you guys got one more good memory in
may he rest in peace and you meet together again

I posted on facebook, but I would just like to again say how sorry I am for you and Lilbit, and the rest of his family. I cannot imagine what you must be going through right now, and we are all here for you if you need anything. Take your time, don't feel like you have to do anything with secundi stuff right now. Thoughts and prayers are being sent your way <3333 *snugs*

Oh my god Silv, I just saw you post on Facebook. I am soooo sorry for you and Lilbit. My prayers are with you both. :-[

I am so sorry for yours and LilBit's loss, you guys will be in my thoughts <3

As several others have said Secundi is here for you, if we can help in any way just let us know *hugs*

*hugs* That sounds horrible, Silv. :( Sorry that had to happen to you and LilBit. Hopefully you find out why soon.

Oh my god I just can't believe this. I'm so sorry, my friend. You and LilBit are in my prayers tonight. I just wish I could do more for you.  :'(

I can't even imagine.  I'm so sorry.

I can't believe this... I am so, so terribly sorry.  Good to hear you have family coming to stay and support you, but oh my lord... what a terrible thing to have happen.  *sends big big massive hugs*

And in the meantime, DEAR LIFE, STOP BEING SO NASTY TO MY FRIENDS.

I'm so sorry, Silv. Since my little one was born, I've been thinking a lot about what I'd do if I lost my hubby or daughter. Needless to say, my prayers and thoughts are with you.

I am so sorry for your loss

If you need anything, please let me know

Thank you so much everyone, your prayers, thoughts and sympathies mean a great deal to me.  LilBit and I have experienced an amazing outpouring of love and help from family, friends, and strangers.  It's been decided that lilbit and I will be moving to live with my parents in utah.  We're moving this weekend.  We'll be burying Ben's body there, the funeral will be sometime next week.  all of that will have me busy and away, but I think likely after that I'll be back.

As for what happened, it turned out Ben had bad heart disease that we didn't know about.  His heart was nearly all blocked up.  Ben wanted to be an organ donor should something happen to him, and that wish was able to come true.  I find comfort knowing that our trajedy wasn't for nothing, someone else will receive the good news they've been so hoping for.

I was going to guess it was something like that.  I'm glad that at least organ donation was possible, AND that you are surrounded by loving and supportive family and friends.

I will definitely be sending good vibes your way throughout this difficult time.  Take whatever time you feel you need, whenever you need it.  *HUGS again*

Oh my god, that's tragic. So sorry for your loss.
Take care of yourself and LilBit foremost, we all understand. You are very strong.

I'm so sorry for you loss, Silv. I don't know what to say either, but my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Awww... Still tragic, but I suppose there's a silver lining? Hopefully you'll continue to be surrounded by support - this seems pretty sudden and I think I'd be in a bit of a daze for a while.

I hope you & Lilbit have a safe trip to Utah Silv. I also pray that God will lay his healing hand on your hearts & help to ease your pain. Stay safe.

I'm so very sorry Silv.

I am so sorry for you loss.  I cant imagine what you and lilbit are going through. You will be in my thoughts <3

Oh my gods, I am so sorry! There are no words for something like this.

I just want to thank you guys all again for your kind words and understanding.  Seriously, it means so much to me.  Things have been a whirlwind of sad things and difficult things, but I've had so much amazing support from so many people, and all told I'm doing remarkably well. 

I've got my old slow laptop connected into my parents' internet now, so I probably will start to be around more this week, but probably won't get back to much artwork until my good computer gets delivered with the rest of our things that couldn't go on the airplane.  I think that'll be in a week or two that the rest gets delivered.

I'm so sorry to hear this news, it's so sudden.  I remember back on the Orchard when you were getting married.  I've got you and your family in my prayers *hugs*

X.x! I am so sorry, my prayers to both of you.

*more hugs all around*  Thanks again, everyone.

It turns out that after the funeral LilBit and I will be headed to CA to spend a week with Ben's parents, and to attend the memorial service they'll be holding there.  We'll get back right at the very end of the month.

As far as Quinsta events go - I'm going to just push everything back a month, since there were new breed release stuffs I really wanted to do in conjunction with Quin #3000, before the next breeding season.  So, April will be a release/bribe month, and May will be our next breeding season.

Take your time silvanon
you and LilBit need to focus on family only do what you feel you can, I just don't want things to hit you and you feel bad cause they don't get done.

Maybe and I am sure most people would agree, maybe just colour a few here and a few there and hold some events, it is low commitment, I do not wish to see you get overworked in a very draining time.

Take your time, Silv.  Just do whatever you feel up to, when you feel up to it, and don't worry about the rest.  Pixel critters are way less important than real life events.

Quick notice - at my in-laws until the 30th with very limited internet.

Good luck Silv!!!  Trying to beam energy to you from around the world!  We miss you and it is so good to hear from you every few days.

Love,
skys

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I found a spot where my phone gets a good signal, and I even figured out how to copy and paste on my phone!  I got a bit of free time with some art supplies.  Hopefully above is a photo preview of some traditional Paints, which I'll make available for bribes when I'm back to regular comp use next month.

Gorgeous, Silv! <3

Those look amazing. I hope that you and Lilbit are ok. *hugs*

Gorgeous!

They are beautiful Silv :)

Glad you able to touch base now and then so we know you and LilBit are ok for now, we are all here if you need anything!

Here's another:

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Drawing is comforting.

Gorgeous as well! Looks like I need to start saving ;)

I haven't been on much so I'm only just now seeing this.
*hugs*

LilBit and I are back in our new home in Utah now!  Our things got delivered while we were in CA, so I guess I'll get to spend some time the next few days unpacking.  Today I got LilBit off to school, then made some necessary phone calls and then spent a lot of time working on a resume.  "Yay" job hunting.  ^^

My good computer is still in a box at this point, so a bit longer before I start up adoption stuffs again.

Good luck unpacking, Silv, and I hope you had a nice time in CA.  Just curious, are you in a part of Utah that doesn't get snow now?

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There's not snow here right now, except on the tops of the mountains & hills, but yeah, this part of Utah gets snow.  I'm in between Salt Lake City and Provo, if that helps.

Good computer has been located & unboxed, but I have to wait until my new wireless bridge arrives (supposedly Saturday) before good compie has internet again.  You'd think a wireless router could perform as a wireless bridge too, but no, apparently wireless routers can only perform as wired bridges. (You have to run a cable between two wireless routers in order for them to talk to each other.)  Go figure.  Anyways, as you can probably imagine, I am very very much looking forward to having a capable, internet-enabled computer of my very own back again.

Wah.  The delivery company left the box with my new wireless bridge in it on someone else's door, and they have to try on Monday to get it back from whatever random person they gave it to.  So I still don't have internet on my computer I like to work on.  Wah.  Wah, wah.  XP  I've thought about trying to do work on that computer then use flash drives to transfer it to one with internet, which I may end up doing if they can't get my bridge back tomorrow.  I wanna get back to doing adoptables, I miss it.

May Silv's wireless bridge come back to her.

;_;

Evil delivery company. Was it FedEx? They're good at that around here. Three times I've gotten my neighbor's medicine who lives three doors down. So I bring it to them, since it is medicine after all.

But still! They shouldn't do this. They're such big bullies!

Silvanon, I happened by Secundi today and I was shocked to hear your news. I'm so sorry for your loss and glad to hear that you and LilBit are settling into your new home.

Thank you Sushi.

My wireless bridge arrived today, I'm typing this on my good work computer which now has internet access.  Much yay for internet!  Watch for a Quinsta bribe post to go up later this evening!

So glad to see you and LilBit are getting settled in.