January 27th, 2010, I found out I was about 6 weeks pregnant with a baby. I've decided to share my daily feelings & thoughts with Secundi. At the end of each day, I'll post a little something. So... yeah!
Day 1
It was a total shock to hear those words, "Well, you're pregnant. Now, let's try to figure out when the baby will be due..." It was sudden, rather crude, and shocking. At 17, I never figured I'd hear those words. I knew it was my fault (and Leeto's, naturally), but it still felt like a dream. All day, I felt rather hysterical. How was this really possible? Well, not that, but I didn't feel like I was hearing the truth. My mom & dad were understanding, and now they're looking out for me. Dad & I are going to start walking every morning, and mom & I are going to take yoga classes together. Mom & I are doing healthy grocery shopping together until I learn what to eat & what not to eat. We went today (yesterday, really) and bought all sorts of strange health foods. Not what I'd like to eat, but nevertheless, I'll have to get used to it.
I've had major pancake cravings already. I feel achy, I feel like a blow fish (where's the Gas-X when you need it? Stupid stomach feels like a balloon now!), and the cravings... won't stop! I had 6 pancakes, caked in syrup, in about 1 hour. How's that for a record? I have a feeling I'm going to gain a looooot of weight, but I honestly don't mind, as long as the baby's healthy.
So, moody, full of air, achy, dealing with a migraine... and only 6 weeks along!
Until tomorrow, Diary
-Blowfish Splitty & the Nublet in the Oven
Days 2 & 3
Day 2 was nothing but rumbling tummy, non-stop eating, and laughter. Reality still did not hit me.
Day 3, however, hit me hard. About 2 am, I woke up, and realized that I'm pregnant for the first time. I knew it before, but it never really hit home. I spent hours and hours just sobbing, 'cause I felt just overwhelmed. I still feel this way, but with Leeto supporting me, I feel a lot better. Now fears of reality have hit me. I've already fallen in love with this baby, even though it's probably not even as big as a small plum yet. I'm worried that I will have a miscarriage, or even that it is a false positive. I am doing all I can to stay positive and stay relaxed, but I am so terrified that something will happen. Having my life change so drastically once is enough of a rattle. If it changed again, and so soon, I don't know what I would do. I slept in so much today. Im incredibly exhausted, and I just on't know what to do with myself any more right now.
*squishes Splitty*
-noms Red- <3 It means a lot to me that you've posted, Red. n___n It really does.
I was afraid to xD (cause it's a diary, and posting's kinda like intruding ^^') but that was just too heart clenching to post anywhere else. I really hope your baby comes out safely <3
I wasnt posting because I didnt want to interupt the journal. Since you had a thread in chat, I wasnt sure if you wanted this just for your posts or not. I think this is a brilliant idea, and Im reading every post you make!
No, I absolutely loooove knowing that people are reading. It makes me feel like I really do have y'all right behind me, and that it's not just going into space. <3<3 It helps me open my feelings to y'all AND to myself, so I can see how I really am feeling. <3
I too, am here and reading *snuggles* And don't worry, the emotional roller coaster ride is quite normal. So too, is falling in love with them. Were here for you sweety *hugs*
-snuggles and noms-
EEEEE.
Day 3, final part
Leeto is 4 minutes from the house. He brought me a super special treat. He knows how healthy I've been eating already, and how many sweets (including nummy creame puffs!) I've turned down. He's bringing me my faaaavorite thing to nom on in the world; a Hershey's Pie from Burger King! Good bye for the night, apple slices, and hello pie!
'Till tomorrow, Diary~
-Splitty & a now happy Nublet-
Day 4: Morning-Afternoon
Last night I had a dream that I had a false positive. It tore me up in my dreams and made my heart race all day. I took another at-home test. It's definitely positive. All I can do now is hope for a healthy baby & birth & pregnancy.
hope you enjoyed your pie! :D that was a sweet thing of Leeto to do <3
*snugs* try drinking something calming before bed, to prevent nightmares ^^
Sounds good. n___n I'm not allowed to have tea due to caffeine, but I might see if there's caffeine-free sweet tea I can get. <3<3 Or peach tea. :3
actually I find plain hot water very calming :)
(but peach tea sounds goooood <3)
Lots of herbal teas are caffeine free. I like peppermint! My boyfriend likes pomegranate. I've also tried white tea with apricot and that was quite yummy.
I used to drink a blackberry tea. Very soothing, and it had no caffiene. Stupid store stopped selling it though :S
Ooh all of that sounds amazing~. <3
I ish reading too! =3
Just really busy this weekend..
Day 6: Afternoon-Night
As I'm writing this, it is actually Day 7 (1:03 PM), but I figured it's better late than never to write.
My mom & dad were actually sitting and reading the book I'd suggested on getting (A Complete Idiots' Guide to Pregnancy and Childbirth). They were talking about what I can and cannot eat. I was shocked. They really are here for me. I already knew that, but they're making an effort to really help me. I can't say I'll miss having hotdogs, but all of these other eating rules? Peh! I just want food, and I want it now! Hehe.
Leeto got to come over. This is the first time we've actually spent real time together since I found out I was pregnant. Mom & Dad were actually glad to have him here. There was absolutely nothing awkward about it, which made me happy. Granted, Leeto kept calling me a 'Fatty Watty', but I don't mind. He says I'm a cute 'fatty watty', and that's what matters. xDD
So I'm still nervous. I have my appointment this Monday, now, with my step-cousin, Jenny's, sposgeuhgwtricion. No, I DON'T remember what they're called. XD Obstatricion, maybe? Eh. Either way, she's had 2 babies. Both were beyond incredibly healthy, and she only had to have 1 c-section, even though both happened to have rather large foreheads & were quite big! I'm nervous. <3 I can't wait. I know I won't really be able to see the baby this soon, but... I feel like I'm already in love with it. I'm just hoping it's only one baby! Twins, I'll die. Any more than that... Leeto dies.
'Till tomorrow, Diary
-A rather happy (and VERY full) Splitty
Do NOT drink some herbal teas.
Just wanted to get that said quickly. Some have things that are not great for a growing baby. peppermin is an ok one. I have a list somewhere, but not too sure where.
call the doctor an OB, it is short and easy to remember, as they are Obstetricians and Gynecologists, or OB/GYN, or Girly doctor
awww is very kind of your parents to support you so much <333
OB = much better. XDD Yes. OB appointment Monday.
Yes, Red, it is. <3 Though I have to say Mom pulled a prank & made me think I couldn't have Mac & Cheese. I started crying right away so she told me she was kidding. XD I'm a Mac & Cheese NUT. -gigglesnort-
Awh; I'll be reading / following this thread too. I can't imagine how hard it must be for you. *big careful e-squishy*
The only hard part for me, now, is worrying that something is wrong. T___T I'm spotting now, so that has me paranoid that it might be a sign of a miscarriage. Thankfully, I get to find out tomorrow, I do believe. <3
Day 7
Splitty is sleepy. And full of cravings. <3 That's... pretty much it for today. My eyes are burning from looking at the screen. XD
Dear Diary
Splitty has gas all up in her belly. >_> She is unhappy.
Any news on the baby?